Well, it seems that what you are going through, and the time that it takes to do so, are actually what you need and one day you’ll look back and be glad that you gave yourself the time to—as you say—grieve.

And it also seems that with a different throw of the dice, you’d be joyful easily and sustainedly. And all I would want to add to that would be “Trust the dice. You have no choice”.

It is difficult to deal with grief, especially living grief. One where the person or feeling is still alive and rejecting. With death, it is so much easier because it is one sided (not to say it is easy, just easier than dealing with a live person), and you do not need to confirm anything with the dead. They simply are. And you simply are.

But with the living.. and the rejectionary type… the hurt that digs so deep into our souls… that is hard. And the night may be long with the tears and cries of the carring.

Open your eyes in the new day and see the day as another chance to get over the night, the rejection, and the grief this one is causing. You are good, and desirve good things Serenity.

Many good thoughts i send to you today (((hugs)))

I don’t know the answers -but I can send you some hugs and hope that you find the way to deal with the situation.

Vincent,
Very true. The dice are rolled and we get what we get. Some things we make choices about, some things we don’t. The part I am trying to learn better is to accept how I feel. It is easy for me to criticize myself for things, as you know, and I don’t need anything else to add to the list! The other thing I am trying better to remember is that nothing is permanent, most especially emotions.

xmichra,
New days bring new opportunities and it is important to remember that emotions come and go. Sometimes nights can seem long. Thank you for the hugs and good thoughts

Rob,
Situations, like emotions, come and go…time brings perspective until the next time when we forget about the transient nature of both all over again!

Thank you for the hugs!!!