truth absolutely
i envy people who write and speak with authority about things they know…i have far more questions than answers…as i get older i know even less…the only thing that really changes is the flickers of moments where not knowing doesn’t seem to be as big a crisis as it once was for me…there is less of a rush to figure things out all the time…though, i do still have the frustration that i “should” know something i don’t, or should be doing something i’m not…i’m a questioner…and as a questioner i am prone to changing my mind a lot…swapping out this idea for that one…”oh, i never thought of it that way before”…although i know the fundamental “me” is the same “me” that was always “me”, and i do maintain there is no way for me to be anything other than myself at all times…there is very little in the way of thought that feels constant…this has gotten me into trouble at times with people who are more constant in their thinking…who take a position and hold to it their whole life…i have been reminded of things i said years ago…reminded in a way that also comes with an expectation that it’s all the same now…yes, i said that or thought that 20 years ago…i don’t think the same way any more…does that mean it was a lie back then when i said this or that?…it didn’t feel like a lie…it felt like what i thought at the time…i wasn’t trying to trick anyone…in many ways i am not the same person…but i am the same person too…i’m still the same person who changes her mind and is emotional and unsure of herself…who is more okay now with changing her mind and being emotional and unsure of herself…but not yet quite okay enough…i do wish to be self examining and even critical in a constructive way…to improve, to change, to be fluid and open and embracing of new ideas and thoughts and always to learn from others…not so fluid that i disappear, but rather to take it all in through the filter of my own heart…some of it stays…some of it doesn’t…this is why i think i am so bad at remembering quotes from books…i read…i take in…i filter…some of it sticks, some of it doesn’t…it sticks and gets new meaning, meaning more personal to me…a personal paraphrase i guess…and then there are other things that rattle around in my head and pop up at the most interesting times…like just now i heard echoes of “to thine own self be true”…a memory of Mrs. Davis, my junior high school english teacher, who made us memorize and recite portions of hamlet…a horrible task for someone like me who is terrorized by speaking in front of large groups…but memorize i did…no way i was going to let myself be made to look like a fool for missing even a single word…i remember how tight her face was…how it seemed a lot of years of living a hard life had hardened her to the point of a hardened face…”don’t do that with your face, it will freeze that way”, i remember my grandma saying…but there was also a soft spot inside Mrs. Davis if you knew where to go poking around…
…so…how do people become so self assured…to find someone utterly confident in the one absolute truth…really? there is one absolute truth…can we agree on that?…can we agree on the “fact” there is one absolute truth?…hmmm…this is a problem for me, i think…how do you explain the guy next door who also knows the one absolute truth but his absolute truth isn’t the same as your absolute truth…if there is only one absolute truth, how can there be any variation…wouldn’t variation in itself bring doubt that there is such a thing as one absolute truth?…with one absolute truth, how could there be any argument?…can we agree that you believe in your own absolute truth and the neighbor believes in his absolute truth?…no…mine is THE absolute truth…can we agree that there is an absolute truth but you could be wrong about what that absolute truth is?…no, my truth is the absolute truth…why?…because the scripture says so…oh, okay…so your scripture is the one absolute truth?…yes…and his scripture that he says is the one absolute truth is a lie?…yes…and if i ask him the same question he will tell me his scripture is the one absolute truth and yours is a lie?…probably so…oh…okay…this makes perfect sense…thank you for the clarification…i understand better now…
4 Comments to truth absolutely
Thanks for this Serenity. You make me see that this obsession with truth (in a society which depends on lies) is a cultural thing and there is nothing absolute about it. This whole idea of absolutes has come from Plato via Christianity. I was brought up in a Christian tradition like you but tend to see through that layer to the human animal beneath, whose necessity is survival and whose guideline is instinct.
Truth is certainly vital, but it ties us up in knots if we think of it as an entity. What is important is simply that we are not deceived.
We are many more times likely to deceive ourselves than be deceived by others. And the surest way to deceive ourselves is to believe something.
In the supermarket you consider buying a processed food item. By law it must have a label which tells the ingredients and their food values. For marketing purposes, the label tells you the item is good for you, as well as tasty. Thus you are dependent on “truth” when deciding to buy or not.
Now suppose you have an apple tree in your garden. There is no label, therefore the issue of “truth” doesn’t arise. There are no words involved. You pick an apple and eat it.
Unfortunately, the world has become so corrupted that even the eating of apples is covered by propaganda. Put the phrase “five a day” into Google and you will see hundreds of references to a health campaign by the UK government to counter the propaganda of the processed-food manufacturers, and get people to eat five portions of fruit or vegetable a day.
“Truth” versus “truth”: heaven for a legal practice. But for you and me, there is no peace till we get well clear of all claims to truth.
November 25, 2008
Vincent,
As always you inspire more thought. I think you open another interesting concept in “belief”. People can, and have, believed in all sorts of truths later to be dispelled. The deception is actually quite simple. Even relying on one’s senses doesn’t always turn out to be quite “right”. A reasonable assumption when I look at the horizon is to conclude the earth I am standing on must be flat. A view from space tells me differently. Which brings me back to a comment I posted over at your place. We can often think we are standing on a level of higher understanding…until we realize the mountain we believe we were standing on turns out to be a hill…with a mountain behind us…
we can believe the earth is flat because we are standing on it and it looks flat…never knowing that from another vantage point (space) we see our own eyes have deceived us.
You have just given another example to support what I was saying, Serenity—not an exception.
Our eyes rarely deceive us. When we are simple and primitive we don’t “believe the earth is flat”. We see what we see and that is good enough. It is only when we start a long sea journey, or see through our telescope on the horizon a ship with sails but no hull, that the curvature of the earth crops up as an issue.
In these hills where I live, the earth certainly doesn’t look flat.
What I am saying, dear Serenity, is that we don’t start to deceive ourselves until we start to believe something.
Madame Butterfly believes that Pinkerton will come back as he promised. That is the source of her self-deception and consequent suffering.
It is not necessary to believe so many things!
I say this not for the sake of argument, but to help.
November 25, 2008
Vincent,
Actually, thank you for returning and adding this…I think there is quite a bit to what you are saying, and I don’t think I am in disagreement…more like just exploring this a bit further as I go and as usual sort of shifting this way and that way…when you say we don’t start to deceive ourselves until we believe something…i think there is a lot of truth there…if i look at a horizon while i am at the ocean…why would the thought even occur to me in the first place to think the whole earth is flat…which is a conclusion…i wonder why a conclusion is called for in the first place…i have gone from gazing at a horizon to making up a story about the shape of the earth…how did i get from one point to the other, and why did it occur to me to go there? does this not only serve to close my mind by drawing a conclusion, or as we have been saying…creating a belief where i have now deceived myself into a belief that something is true?
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